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9/28/17

 

I tried to meditate during yoga on Monday.  

First of all, I went to yoga on Monday.

 

Analise began by saying “ok. let’s arrive,” and I agreed.  There were a few moments where I was there and nowhere else, but then my concentration shifted towards how in the moment I was.  Does that count?  

 

By the time I stopped thinking about now and came back to now, I’d missed a transition and was a totally different warrior than everyone else.

 

 

I keep trying to cook good food and I am, but then the day or hour has passed and I still haven’t sewn the sweater or read for Daily Life.  

 

The food goal is partly to keep me well and to make sure food from the farm doesn’t go bad, but I really don’t think it’s my fault that the lettuce got soggy after three days.

It might’ve been my fault that there was condensation (more like baby lakes) all over the fridge.  It was 84 degrees, but I also probably open the door too often and for too long.

 

I gave up on zumba.  Week two wasn’t as fun and my knees sort of hurt in a my bones shouldn’t be moving like this sort of way.  I wanted to commit to it, but then I decided that committing just for committing’s sake isn’t as important or enjoyable as dinner right after ceramics.  

 

I cooked fish for the first time.  It was a visual disaster and tasted great.  I’m not sure why the yellowtail stuck to the cast iron.  I’ll try a regular skillet next time.

 

 

There’s a lot that I can’t control.   I’m struggling to know if I should control when I can, and how.  

 

Life is (paradoxically) easier when I discipline myself to right now instead of trying to figure out everything that I should be doing.  I keep trying, and that effort gets in the way of being.

 

Discipline is the suppression of base desires, and is usually understood to be synonymous with self-restraint and control. Discipline is when one uses reason to determine the best course of action regardless of one's desires, which may be the opposite of excited. Virtuous behavior can be described as when one's values are aligned with one's aims: to do what one knows is best and to do it gladly. Discipline is very important in our lives.

 

 

I’m planning to meditate for ten minutes everyday in October.